I started therapy in December and diagnosed with BPD. It took 10 months for me to fully understand BPD. I started idealizing her like I have several other females in my life. I have always had attachment issues and got to attached to her and fought it. I kept pushing her and started lying to her. She has always been very kind and told me she wasn't going anywhere. I started craving the attention and affection. I finally admitted I was too attached and We had an intense session set boundaries. I was too afraid to admit to her I had lied about several things (having an abortion, abuse issues, a black eye I gave myself, sleeping around) but the other day after I quit again she said I had to seek out residential treatment or she would have to refer me. I ended up texting her telling her I had lied and she was very kind again and said "everything will be okay". I never thought I would admit that I am liar. I run from things and don't like to face them. I am still so nervous about my appointment next week. She never indicated that she thought I was telling her lies all this time though. Thoughts?