I have had these thoughts for over three years. I have stopped seeing my therapist - well almost - my son had some serious issues last month so I went back after a few months' break to seek help for that. I thought not seeing him would lessen the attraction but I seem to be hanging on to it. I presently have no plans to resume therapy with him or anyone else because I shouldn't think the way I do. Not because it's particularly morally wrong but because it makes me feel bad and eventually leads to depressive episodes.