One of the most poignant moments in my therapy was when my therapist acknowledged that my depression is atypical and that the common analogies that people use do not apply to me. The "everything is gray" thing doesn't resonate with me. Nor does "walking around with bricks on my shoulders". So she no longer speaks in cliches when trying to help me see that I'm depressed (which I am not always aware of).

Maybe coming up with your own metaphors will help?

Also, it sounds like you may be experiencing stuff BESIDES depression. I have repetitive and disorganized thoughts as well. They seem to be independent of my mood. I'm currently not medicating these symptoms, but I have taken stuff in the past that kinda-sorta helped.