I realize it's hard not to have a "love" relationship with your therapist, especially if he or she fulfills some of your needs for compassion and understanding but I have taken what he has offered and misinterpreted it as reciprocal personal interest in me. This appeals to me greatly. Even though I haven't seen him in weeks, the feelings are every bit as strong and the thoughts every bit as obsessive. He's on vacation right now but when he's in town I "bump" into him regularly. I arrange my day around these "chance" encounters. It's not that I talk to him or anything. The encounters are not usually that close. He lives near me and I walk my dog at a time when I know he might be driving by or I go to the bank near his office or have coffee at a nearby coffeeshop on the off chance that I may see him. It's akin to stalking but not quite or at least I hope not quite because I couldn't really live with that thought. When I was in therapy with him we did discuss my "positive" feelings for him but I didn't get past it.
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