Awww Blue, me too. I wish we lived in a world where we could just be how we are. I do hate this hyper vigilance I have had to adopt. I don't love having to keep myself in some sort of straight line all the time. It's not who I am, it's who I must be.

Yup with being a single mom, which you more than fully know , there is no time to drop the ball. But it makes me sad too, I have been thinking about this and I don't know if I am just exhausted from always trying to keep things in line, or just frustrated that I cannot just be. Oh my gosh, maybe this is anger. I been feeling not to happy with society lately, nothing new there really.

I hope we can do that one day Blue, I think we will. When our children are grown, we should have some time to fully be ourselves.

That is really interesting, maybe it is feelings coming to the surface. For the amount of tears I shed I am surprised there are more feeling hiding in there. Sort of, but it does seem like a pretty deep pit. Kinda like Mr.Dressup's tickle trunk, or Marry Poppins bottomless carpet bag.