Good for you, that was an extremely brave thing you did, definitely not easy. It sounds like you have a very good T who understands what this illness is all about. With that said she probably suspected that you were not being 100% truthful about things because I think a lot of people in therapy hold back even if they don't have BPD. I think we have a tendency of being worse because we crave the attention soooo much. Again, congratulations, that was a huge step.