Hi and welcome to PC. I think the reference to no suicidal posts, is about not posting that you are about to go ahead and do it as that can be distressing for us to read about when we are helpless to do anything. If this is how you are feeling, it is best for you to call the emergency services

However if it is the thoughts of it you are having, then as Agma above said, it can sometimes be useful to talk through what is going on for you and we can offer you support.

Alternatively I have found the Samartians helpful in times of crisis http://www.samaritans.org/

I am sorry things are so tough for you right now, I have been there and please remember that the thoughts do always pass.

Soup