Deffo needs therapy.

If you didnt want to discuss your past, you didnt need to. It shouldnt be so important as you are with him now, not the ones from the past. I feel he pressured you into a corner, and you lied to spare his feelings.

His behaviour over how he reacted when he then pressured you to tell the truth has absolutely nothing to do with you. Do not take the blame for this. You dont put the knife or pills in his hands, and you have no say on what he does with them. I feel he has massive issues and is emotionally blackmailing you. Its actually dreadful behaviour, please please do not take the blame, or be blackmailed in the future. What would happen if you ever wanted to split up with him? He'd try to blackmail you to stay, saying something like "if you leave me, I will kill myself". Please understand his actions are all of his own doing, not yours. You would be entitled to make your own choices, just as he does.

I hope he tries again with therapy, he cant carry on as he is, for himself and your health & mental state. Please dont be a victim or be manipulated because as he is now, I fear will be bad for you. You are not responsible for his happiness.

Wish you all the best x