Thank you for your posts and so quickly. The only time I really need immediate help is when i have a nightmare (worse than I can say) and when I loose all control crying and hurting. I do go in at other times to try to help others and for a lighthearted convo, but my feelings have been hurt so much and it puts me back to that depressed state. It doesn't happen all the time, but I get turned upside down. However, I don't know when it is going to happen and it seems like a risk to me. Im so happy when I feel good, that for someone to ruin it, is just too much for me. Thanks again.