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Originally Posted by Goingtogetthere
I tell my therapist I feel "too" good when she is holding me, then I don't want it. I am not deserving of feeling this way. I have to fight this, but many times I end up fighting my therapist. She always reassures me that she can take care of herself.
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lol, I feel EXACTLY like this. That I don't deserve for her to be nice to me me like this. And I tell her to stop and I get angry that I liked it and I say mean things trying to make her mad so she won't want to do it anymore.
This Ani Difranco lyric kind of explains for me how I feel about it:
I just wanna put down all the pressures
And feel how I really feel
Just show me a moment that is mine
Its beauty blinding and unsurpassed
Make me forget every moment that went by
And left me so half-hearted
Cuz i felt it so half-assed
Like I felt it so intensely bc I dropped my walls and let what I was feeling out, and let what she was offering in.