Im really struggling to distinguish my feelings. Im really paranoid when i meet new people. I always feel like peopke are talking about me behind my back, ive even had a major fall out witg my closest friend cause i thought she was slagging me off to somone on a night out. I

find it really hard to tell wheyher people are really also lesbians or if theyre just ****ing me over. Its so complicated, especially when people dont even seem to know themselves. The first girl i eber really liked was blatently a lesbian and sometimes shed be fine wih it and all over me then shed swith and stay she was straight. I could understand her strugglw but it hurt.

Now it seems to happen a lot. But i dont know if im just paranoid. Why are women so complicated?

Think i need to improve my gaydar. And be more open with my own gayness, this entire post is pretty hypocritical tbh!