as i've mentioned i've been able to get outside for a few days last week. i've also been able to stay out of bed once in a while... not a lot, but a little more regularly than before.

every month my star wars fan club meets. every month i plan to force myself to go because i know it would be good to get out. every month i end up sleeping that saturday instead.

yesterday i was determined to try again, and i made it there. in addition to the meeting, this also required a trip to manhattan. I have not been there since I've been in the hospital. I was quite anxious about it, but i forced myself to remember that i used to take the train in on a regular basis and it was "no big deal". I didn't want to look at this as a "trip" but just a regular visit to the city. once I was on the train i was ok.

everyone was glad to see me. some didn't recognize me right away as i haven't shaved in several months and i haven't had a haircut since being in the hospital seven months ago. some of them said i must be going for the "george lucas" look.

i did the meeting and hung out with them afterwards. i didn't follow with them on their after-meeting plans because it didn't want to push it too hard. i felt ok but didn't want to find my self suddenly exhausted and far from home. i made it home ok and stayed awake until bedtime.

just walking around in manhattan (it was only a block from the train station) was great. i knew once i walked out of penn station that it was good, just the buildings and helter skelter of all the people around.

today i spent a lot of the day in bed again but i'm not too worried about it. i pushed myself pretty hard yesterday and don't want to overdo it and end up worse. so i figured it was ok to "give in" and just take it easy today.

i am hoping to get to next months meeting again too.

hooray for me !

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