Hi Heathery, nice to meet you.

19 years old...same age as me. i havent graduated from anything, im in an average 8am - 4:15pm job 5 days a week, am single, family have fallen to pieces. have had un-imaginable upset in my life, and ive had so many points in my life when ive wanted to end it all, for good. but i didnt, and im still here, still standing. i have done nothng with my life yet...and i want you to focus on one word there, YET. you are 19, you dont have to accomplish anything yet, what do you think you should be doing with your life.

at this age, you are mearly starting your life, as i am. and there is a whole world of opportunities out there. there are people willing to love you, and one day you will start a family. but there is more to life than that. as a person you must have interests, some you may not have realised yet. but they are there. you are still descovering yourself, what makes you tick, and at times this will make you feel the way you are, but you have your whole life ahead of you, to do with as you wish. nothing is impossible.

just go with the flow, and dont tell yourself that you should be someone by now, or you should have a family etc, because you shouldnt.

stick at it yea, things do gradully improve over time, you just need to let them, motivation will increase when you find something you are passionate about.

your parents splitting up is a significant chapter in your life so far, and this has a great deal to do witht he way you are feeling right now. but its natural, try not to beat yourself up over it.

my family has exploded in the last few years, and im hanging onto a few family members ever so slightly. i dream of starting a family too, i look to the future and i see myself being a father to some wonderful kids, with a wife by my side who i love etc. and to be honest, thats what motivates me to succeed in life, so in the future i can provide a fantastic life for my family-to-be. try to focus on that.

take care heathery, and let me know if theres anything you want ok, im here for you.

simon