I can reallu relate to this. I think a lot off people lie in therapy for one reason or another and all id like to say is fair play to you for owning up to it, that takes guts.
I can also massively relate to everythig else you said. I tend to really idealise women (one at a tine) and can get really attention seeking wantig them to know everything abput me and its very hard to hold back but i think telling someone too much too soon tends to have detremental effects on relatiobships (naybe excluding t,s)