I have been thinking about you.

On the positive side, he has some hopes for the relationship. It is obscene to make a comment about kissing 4 years rather than 4 days into the relationship, but, again on the positive side, he would have said anything at all had he been altogether not interested. He says he wants to make it work but he also has other leanings and interests. Maybe negotiate some sort of arrangement with him now that he is in a relatively good mood, going to therapy, sharing and hoping and all that. Get him to commit to shared custody if the separation ever happens. Sort of like a prenuptial, but negotiated in the course of the marriage - is that possible? Enforceable? I do not know, but you if it is, it would give you some much needed peace of mind.