Your insight impressed me. Now, that you have an understanding why you chose to be dishonest, you and your therapist can work on that. This is a good opportunity to learn and grow as a person.

Admitting your mistake shows integrity. Even though the remorse you feel is very uncomfortable, you did the right thing. I think your therapist will consider that. Anyway, lying is common in therapy. Perhaps, it can even be considered an embellishment, but that does not make it okay. My psychiatrist admitted to me most people are not completely honest with her.

When I was I teenager, I lied in therapy, too. I felt so bad, but could not admit it so I quit. Why did I lie? I was desperate for answers. Years later, I confessed and found it relieving. It helped me heal. I also vowed to never ever repeat that mistake, again.

Be honest at your appointment and just be you.