i am so sorry about your cat. i had nightmares and flashbacks for weeks after we had to put my dog down due to old age. it was horrible, so i really feel for you.

congrats on getting that job! that is a great accomplishment, give yourself a pat on the back for that.

as for your boyfriend, it can be incrediblhy hard for a non depressed person to understand what we go through on a daily basis. some people are willing to educate themselves and put some effort into understanding, and for other's it's just too much. and it can take time. my depression and si have definitely taken a toll on our marriage, but luckily my husvand is one of the committed people who are willing to try and understand.

i don't know your boyfriend, so i can't say wha't s going on in his head.

i don't know if this heps any, but i grew up with a depressed mother, and when i waas a teenager, it simply annoyed me. when i was about 16 we went on vacation to ibiza, spain, just her and i, and she spent most of those three weeks in bed in the hotel room. it pissed me off to no end. i didn't know what to do, how to deal with it, how to make it better. so i got angry. i felt helpless. i felt i had no control over it. maybe that's true for your boyfriend too.

i'm sorry if this was just a bunch of stupid rambling, i'm not in a good place right now.