Do I make assumptions? Yeah, even though I know my assumptions are often inaccurate, I can't help feeling that way anyway. But all it takes is for them to tell me or show me in some way that I was wrong, and we're fine.

No, assumptions are not always wrong, but often. For example, one of the things that I really looked forward to about going away to college was having roommates. I imagined that they would be friends and I would be able to talk to them openly and we would share so many experiences, and they would be like the sisters and the family that I wished my family could have been. That was too much to ask, and I was too needy. One year I had roommates who were just too involved in their other relationships and they didn't have time for me. I had a feeling sometimes that I was too needy and they didn't appreciate it, and that feeling was accurate, although I questioned it a lot. The next year I moved in with some girls who I thought were my friends, but again I was too needy, and they hated me. Again, I questioned my assumption, but it was true, and they treated me worse and worse as the year progressed.

Having an experience like that makes it easier to assume that your friends don't like you and/or that they like someone else more. But it doesn't make it true.

Abused/neglected/ignored? depends on who you ask

Do I trust? yeah, I guess I do, but it's fragile

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As usual, you ask some really great questions. Thanks, and I hope that you find the answers you are looking for.

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