Thank you. Some emotion came rolling out yesterday in big waves. T got me on the phone and we talked for an hour.

We have a half day session on Wednesday. I'll be there all morning and this time he said we'll start with hypnosis to get all ego states on board and comfortable, then do the EMDR. Also will stop and do grounding as needed.

T is so gentle about it all. I have become so close to him. I trust him more than anyone. I think the relationship is doing much of the work with healing but I want the release. It's been stuck inside for so long.

T said he will hold my hand too. I think that will make me feel safe. I'm also going to wrap up in a blanket because I was shivering last time. I'm a bit scared of the emotion. I have many traumas to work through and I'm an expert on dissociating. Emotional constriction I think it's called.

He does make it fun though. The techniques he uses are all Harry Potter influenced. Makes it seem magical and safe.

I'll update how the marathon session goes next week.