kazine,

Its a terrible feeling, isn't it?

When someone touches me, even just to be kind, like patting my arm or something, I have this automatic reaction to push them away, or pull my body away from them. If someone taps me on the shoulder I flinch.

I know what you mean, exactly. It is...fear. I feel really scared, like they are going to grab me and not let me get away. I hate being touched, so much that even thinking about it right now makes me feel stressed.

I don't think this is something that will ever change for me. I don't know how to fix it, andI feel bad whenI see others that are completely comfortable with hanging and leaning on each other.

Back rubs are the worst! God, I hate when someone comes up to me and says you look tense and starts rubbing my back. I flip around so fast that I startle them, and then I feel bad, because I know that they are embarrassed, or their feelings are hurt, but I can not control it.

I'm sorry that you have this problem, too,

-Fleeing Bellocq