The good thing about the future is that usually when we get older we have more control. For me this is an exciting as well as daunting prospect. You can live where you like, decorate how you like, invite over whoever you like, get pets if you like, in short - do whatever you like (within reason of course, adulthood also comes with responsibility). I think some short term goals might help you feel better - i don't know your precise age or whether you already know how to drive but if not this could be something worth aiming for. What about going on holiday with friends or going travelling? Sorry if ive not been helpful - hope you feel better soon.