My Dearest tinkerbell ... ... I'd miss you something terrible if you did this ... Not only that, your abusers would win everything ... Please don't give them your life ... They don't deserve it ... I know it's hard ... I had to leave my whole family behind so I could survive them ...

That was 19 years ago, and I had almost succeeded in taking my own life ... I'm so glad now that I didn't ...

It's hard, It's difficult, It's tough, It's a struggle ... It plain just isn't fair ... But a lot of us here do care about you and I'd take every bit of the pain and suffering you're going through away if I could ...

Please reach out to your therapist and/or crisis team ... I didn't think mine could help me either ... But they did and I resisted them kicking and screaming the whole way ... Their job is to keep us safe until we are strong enough to handle it on our own ... And eventually I was able to ...

Sure, I sometimes still feel lost, weak and helpless ... Even beyond that ... Hopeless ... That's why I just got back into therapy myself ...

But it's nowhere near as bad now as it was when I first started out ... I just had to give myself permission to survive them (my abusers) ... It really does get better ... I promise ...

Oh, tink, just know that one person loves you and understands how you're feeling and is rooting for you even if it is from afar ...

,
Pfrog!

*Also PM'd Directly To Tinkerbell ...