Don't feel bad OP about wanting to go back on the meds. I started feeling the same and luckily I had refills left from the times my T had prescribed them. I'm sure if you talk to your therapist between you and them you can make a better judgment about going back on your medicines because as others have pointed out, there is no need to be suffering, we only live a short life and if those medicines are out there why not take them.

In my personal experience I took fluoxetine for almost 14yrs and until this day I don't have a negative effect that I can bring up as a side effect. I stopped them some time ago and had to come back on them, but again we try to fight depression off, but trust me I know in flesh & blood how hard it can be.

I hope you see your T soon ok, best of luck. :-)