TRIGGER - CSA/SA
I just went back and read what I originally posted. It's totally accurate. Then I read what I posted later, and realize I'm lying to myself. To say he doesn't abuse me physcially is untrue. Sexual abuse, taking what you want from a partner when they don't want to, or drugging the person to get better sex is abusive. It's tolerance to that sort of thing that makes me realize how much I need therapy. To answer anyone's question - yes, I was sexually molested frequently as a child. I'm trying to get it through my thick skull that it is always wrong to misuse someone's body. And I shouldn't stand for it.
I've never thought of this before. It kinda makes my head spin.