I really do think that i am trying to get myself to a better place, and though its not like anybody is arguing with me and saying i'm not, I just feel like my efforts all seem to fail. I love y therapist and definitely think she is helping me, so that part is working out. I am constantly in a state of changing meds as I seem to have side effects from everything (and have stage 3 kidney disease from my medications toxicity not being monitored right, until it was too late, but i am okay so i am not making that the main issue here.) I used to be part of a group that went totally down hill and became a negative so I had to stop, so now I am researching looking for another support group though I am failing at finding one at the moment. I do force myself to do things like get out of bed and go to the gym or call a friend (one of the very few i have), but nothing is enough. I am still in a terrible place and its not for lack of trying, I just am not getting anywhere. Its hard not to feel so hopeless when you try so hard and nothing helps!
Mel