Thanks everyone.

I will answer all your kind PM's in the morning when my head is in a better place.
I was looking online on easy ways to kill myself and then my lovely friend from here message me on FB and she nagged me Lol.

Anyway I do feel quite horrible in myself, I am trying my hardest to keep myself together, I will see how I am tomorrow, I have T tomorrow anyway not seen her in almost 3 weeks because I was under crisis team, So hopefully that will do me good.

I want to get better everything is going wrong for me, So many people hurt me and I get sick of it, I heard yesterday that my dads trial is probably going to start in April (more stress) I really don't know how I am going to cope