The truth is I have tried that school of thought before and it hasn't resulted favorably for me. There is the fact that I was on medication for 17 years and there was no need to be on medication. The amount of obsessive thoughts that the medications caused, and countless other effects, could very well be the reason I, or anyone, would turn to drugs and drinking. The medication made me timid, incapable of handling life at all, and cut off important emotions that should be used to direct decision making. I don't have urges, thoughts, dreams, and nothing makes me want to turn to those outs... not even a little. I respect your beliefs (roadie,madisgram, and everyone else), but I have formed my own, too.

Also, I am still on the waiting list for rehab, so I am even taking steps to ensure that I am in control of my own destiny. I am still fine with admitting I am an addict and alcoholic.