thx Angie. it often feels lonely when certain symptoms flare up and the mind sinks down w/o the control or ability to stop it.

it isn't easy going for over one month w/o tx. didn't even make it to the second pdoc appt. due to inability to safely operate a vehicle that day.

we live too far from these things now so when we're not feeling well it is darn near impossible to get off the property and driving the hour plus to our appts and such. even with the dog helping us keep focus sometimes we're beyond her assistance in grounding. driving cannot happen when we're that spaced out. no bus service to boondocks either. cab? hahhhahahah we can barely afford gas.

sometimes the ship takes on water and lowers in the water before we return to the helm. let's hope this is merely a slow leak and not an accidental crashing on the reef w/ water pouring in and lifeforce gushing out. <<--not a suicidal statement at all.....bad analogy or metaphore...can't even remember which! darn useless brain.

thanks for choosing to respond. both your kindness and thoughfulness are appreciated.