Only a Pdoc can diagnosis you.. You may be bipolar or you may be suffering from a basket full of other disorders mental or physically. Of course you should also see your regular medical doctor to see if there could me a medical reason for your symptoms. Maybe going that route will help your parents realize that you may in fact need to see a Pdoc.

You seem to have boxed yourself into a corner feeling you have no way to tell anyone or get help on your own. Just remember every box has a crack or two in it however small they may be.You owe it to yourself to get the HELP you need. Regardless of all fallout afterwards.

Good Luck