I'm such a mess still, I've been on the edge for too long. All I want to do is sleep, everytime I eat it makes me sick. I'm losing too much weight, I can't make my mind still. No therapists in my area work on the weekends. I have no one to share this with, I'm hiding and suffering and I can't find a way out. I've been thinking things I know I shouldn't. I'm just so tired.