one things that hurts so much is the sense of having given so much in so many ways only to be shat upon in return. we know this often can be a distortion of our mind due to depressive thinking or even the dissociation but we're not always going to chalk those thoughts up to old stuff. sometimes we are accurate in our perceptions and when we realize the validity of our assessment of a situation it saddens us greatly to have been correct after all.

pain, whether from within, or inflicted externally is pain.

the cruel taunts echo in our head and smoosh down our heart. the one sided nature of some is what shines in times of need........those that can do and those than can't just show their underbellied by their chosen actions.

one needn't give with expectation of anything in return. however to show compassion or kindness can take courage instead of falling in with the crowd. to be strong enough to stand alone w/o a crew or posse is one of our favourite things about this place. we see the best in folks along side the worst.

we take what works and leave the rest. it still hurts to know some choose to be as they are.