There is nothing wrong with thinking about your therapists past or present. it just means you connected with and trusts /trusted them to help you.

My therapists know when I am seeing them I do think about them as a way to calm myself and they have all told me there is nothing wrong with that. In fact they welcomed it.

When I told SKR about my doing a relaxation visualization at night of imagining the people that were in a support group I was in, in another state, were in my home at strategic points (windows, doors, ) through out my home gauntlet style and then a couple in my bedroom and SKR and a friend on each side of my bed and sometimes I imagine one or the other holding me while I go to sleep. To enhance this relaxation visualization I arrange my pillows into a V shape and lay or curl up in the middle of it as if I am in SKR's arms. SKR thought that was wonderful how I learned to self nurture myself with relaxation visualizations and added to this by giving me a small scented pillow. Its one of those eye relaxation bead pillows you can buy at bed and bath stores and isles in department stores. SKR has not been in my life as a therapist for over 2 years but I still use that relaxation visualization from time to time and that bead pillow is right there with me.

LL (my present therapist) knows I do relaxation visualizations to help myself go to sleep at night and they include my imaging my therapist is here with me. She has added to this by the two of us doing relaxation visualizations during therapy sessions and when we do we record them so that I can put on the recording at home and imagine she is with me doing them at night or anytime that I need to use them.

his topic comes up alot here so there are more threads about this here. you can find them by doing a search by clicking on - advanced search - at the top of the page. I have found the best way for me to use the search area is type in the topic and then in the days fiels change that one to years and the other one that says older than I put one day that way all the threads on my chosen search topic shows up.