Hi and welcome!
There are ways to cope with bp without meds, but it's tricky. You'll find people here who do it successfully. But ideally, I would think since you're adult now, meds could be helpful while you do therapy and work on the coping skills. Get through school and then get ready to do it med-free. Don't let your bf's view of meds stand in the way if you want to try a pdoc and everything. Or maybe you are on meds now? If you are, maybe pdoc could give you something extra for anxiety to help with the crying spells and help deal with school. And so long as you're trying, you're not failing. That is negative self talk spirals that eat away at us. And if you're already depressed, no need to get doubly mad at yourself, you have bp, this happens.