There is one thing which I face just like now;that being the feeling of wanting to strangle and humiliate and beat my 'EX soon to be';I feel that he had no right to fool and propse me 11 years back when he was not in love with me;my 11 years of life seems to ahve gone;and i feel I have been totally drained and sucked ;

I am aware ,eevry thing in my life is the consequence of amy action(infact I am the one that let him fool around with me);
I just feel like now-to go and hit him in public,if he is having affair then pull the AP hair and throw cat's and human dung on them literally,tell that hs action towarsd me is as good as raping me;I am not able to throw my anger away;

Either its always anger towards that scum or it is hatred and excessive guilt for myself;
End result-are the explosive behaviours I display ;