Yes sweet surrender thats the thouggt pattern ive been goin through! Im still consider the fact i may be bisexual, although think i might actually be asexual. I do agree it could be a mother figure. Especially as it always tends to be older women. I live witg my my mum and dad now but my.nan was probably the primary mother figure throughout my childhood and since she is now at the late stages of dementia after ten years off sufferin maybe im making up for the fact i miss her looking after me? Thanks for sharing your thoughts sweet surrender it has 'opened my eyes' so to speak.