I don't seem to have a problem with weight and my alters. When I was 16 I weighted 94 punds. Today I am 145-155. When I switch into the memories of "Mary" in those memories I am 94 pounds. so when "mary" the only thing I know is being 94 pounds because that is what that memory content contains.

One time I because aware in LL's office and she was saying I looked pregnant and I was sitting like someone who is pregnant. I just told her I wouldn't mind being pregnant again and thought "ok I was 30 when I was pregnant so I was most likely rerunning the memories known as Ann.

From medical records I know that I was 189 pounds when I was 9 months pregnant and I pigged out on gummy bears and tacos. could not keep anything down unless it was smothered in taco sause.

So from time to time I find gummy bears and taco fixings galore. so I know Ive been pigging out again.

But every time I switch from memory piece to memory piece my boilogivcal weight does not change. I used to wonder why and then I found out for me it works the same way medications do.

I can go to the dentist and because of switching from memory piece to memory piece recieve 5 different novacane shots.

The only one the effects me is the one that I got when aware and the only ones that effect "mary" is the one I got when rerunning the memories or "Mary".

If I am aware the shot I got wears off and I do not experience the numb effect of the shot "mary" got.

When I get a shot and seitch into "mary" I am no longer numbed as mary.

When I asked a DID professional he laughed at me because I could not grasp that concept. its my body so I should be experiencing everything that happens with my body no matter who I switch into right. and he said no.

Diswsociation is mentally separating myself from my body so that I don't mentally and or physically experience what happens to me.

As an alter I can experience my labor pains of having my child but while completely aware because I recieve the demoral when aware I no longer feel the pain.

And visce vera the memory piece replaying experiences the pain of my labor because I did not get a demorol shot when I had switched into that memory piece.

my weight and what I eat is the same way. I can gorge on tacos as one alter and not see or feel the effects when completely aware.

I laughed because now I understood how my best friend and I can go to a restraunt and my lose time and becoming aware walking out of the restraunt my stomach will growl because Im hungry even though I just ate. because I switched before eating when my brain stops rerunning the automatic memory content I am back on the body chemicals and so on of how I was before I had switched.

So I don't have a problem with my weight because of my alters. When Im an alter I take on the appearance of what I was when that memory piece was created and when I return I am back the way I was before I had switched. even though hours may have passed for example I may switch at 4 pm and eat as mary at 5 pm and become aware at 6pm but mentally I am thinking I should be starting dinner because the time should be 4 pm.

One of my friends think its great that I can eat all that I do some days and not gain a pound.

As for losing weight when I want to - the only advice I have is that since switching into memory pieces is trigger related - to consult your physician and have him put you on an apporved diet plan where you won't be feeling hungry which may be triggeriung you into switching into the eat frame of minds.

For example the diabetic 2 diet plan is also good for non diabetic people with high clorestol and for weight loss. the person basically eats 9 times a day but in extremely small quantities for example breakfast for me is one egg, one slice of toast with one teaspoon of preserves a half cup of v 8 and hafl cup of orange juice, one 8 oz yogert cup. two hours later I am eating again one slice of bread, one ounce of ham, one slice of cheese, one slice of tomato, one leaf of lettuce one banana, two hours later I am eating again.

Basically this fools the body into thinking I am over eating (which in acuality I am getting 1800 - 2000 calories a day 500 - 700 calories less than a normal diet) so the body kicks into not storing the food as fat cells that rationing food does.