There is one more thing I should mention:
His way of coping with the situation or rather becoming "numb" is drinking. He tends to do it every evening, and I'm sorry for doing that, but I seriously count the bottles. It's something I learned to do as a daughter of an alcoholic. And now I feel a bit like reminded of my father..
Well, my boyfriend drinks about 2 litres of beer - almost every evening. I told him I'm afraid of him getting/ already having a serious issue. But the only thing he replies is that he knows it isn't good and before I lied to him he also hadn't smoked that much. It's my fault he's doing that or better to say: As I lied to him, he now has to find ways to deal with it, and this is one way.
Day by day I witness total self-destruction, and I'm more than worried.