Well, the past few weeks have been so challenging for me. I have been so up and down and with too much all at once really.

Well, I am trying to get together with a trainer so she can help me sell my beautiful Mustang. I love him very much, but I am really struggling to keep up with the expenses of the debt I was left with from my negligent neighbor as well as be so challenged with this PTSD too. So, I am really very tired and trying to reduce my expenses.

Well, I have been working with this Mustang a little and he just doesn't look right to me in his hind end, but I am keeping in mind that he has been out of work for over two years and he has no muscle. However, he did get injured along with others and it brings back all my experiences with dealing with so many lame animals.

Ugh, I had such a hard time while working with him the past two days tbh, I experienced a lot of minnie flashbacks where I had to constantly look at "lamenesses" in my horses and ponies. I am also afraid this trainer is going to come out today and tell me he is lame too. It is hard to tell when they are lame in the hind end.

Sigh, I just want something to be "positive" in my life right now. I have so many "troubling" things going on all at once. And I hope I don't get emotional with this trainer as well, I hate when that happens, it is embarassing.

This horse is such a beautiful and talented animal, he should be with someone that can work with him and love him, someone he will be happy with as well. But I do love him myself, I just can't afford to take care of all these animals.

I guess I am just "saying my prayers" that this will work out and I wont have to hear something bad. I have had more than enough of that going on right now.

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