Hi, Rose. First off, I would like to tell you it's not your fault AT ALL and I'm sorry you've been through that. You were so young, a child's innocence should never be taken like that. You know, I went through something similar, and I've been larning to cope with it for 7 years, the hardest of my life. You can message me at anytime if you want to talk. I hope therapy goes well. Hugs!