Hey Kj So So sorry your having such a rough time.

Your situation certainly isn't a healthy place to be.Many of us "over used" our medications at some point. At least you got help!

As far as being pressured into doing things you don't and or can't do that's your right as a human being. If your husband is being abusive physically or verbally you need to figure out if you have a safe place to go whether it be family or a womans shelter.

You do have a right to be safe , access to medical care and most of all be accepted and cared for.

Take care of YOU !