I cant agree with trippin, christina and DH more. No respect lost for yo what so ever. I really feel for you. I know what it is like to have an abusive controlling husband, with afairs, no car, no family around. And we share that connection of having lived on the streets. But the streets have nothing for you. What I mean by that is the streets lack the gentleness that you deserve. I also relate to taking bottles of medicine.

Can you go to a womens shelter like christina mentioned? They can usually even transfer you to other shelters to be near family. I went through shelters to leave my ex and they really helped me. The womens shelters were nothing like the homeless shelters.

I hope you can be strong and get away from him. You don't deserve to be treated that way. That's the thing about abusive people, they usually go through bits of being super nice and loving, and super abusive, and usually just worst the longer it goes on.

You need to just worry about you right now, and what you need. Please keep posting if that helps. I wish I could come help you in real life. Your story just breaks my heart.