I am not sure where I stand on this. If he is abusing me mentally and emotionally, he doesn't mean it, and I am not sure if that is what it is.

I need to talk to my therapist about it and try to figure out what to do. I just don't know when I'll find the time this week. I am in a partial hospitalization program. I might be able to do a 3pm on Wed. I will need to call him.

I can't trust my instinct right now. My instinct says to separate and either let the relationship go, or really work on it so that we can come together again. Right now I am just so hurt that I can't think straight about it. Am I trying to run away, or did I put in a real effort and find that I am up against a deal breaker.

We worked on values today in group and one of my highest ranked values was romantic relationships. What I want from them is to have a person who gives and especially is willing to receive love. I don't know right now if my husband is that person.

I am not looking for someone new, but I think I deserve to be able to give love to someone and have that person be willing to receive and get something positive from it rather that focusing on and keeping secret the negatives.

My poor kids. What's worse, the family breaking up, or keeping the family together at the expense of a loving relationship between the two adults in the family? That affects the children too. Everyone I have talked to (with the exception of my counselor at the program) has said that I need to be better so that I can keep it together for the sake of the children.