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Old Oct 22, 2012, 03:16 PM
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I have often wondered if this is something that I have. In the past, I used to close my drapes and put towels over the windows because I thought the neighbors were spying on me to have me taken away from my mother. Any notes I would write, sometimes journal entries, I would rip into tiny pieces and flush down the toilet so no one would find them. I've still thought that the government watches us through our TVs, monitors our phone calls and emails and online searches, and is out to get us. And I've always been afraid that people can listen in on my thoughts. So I try not to think negative, scary thoughts. I am prone to bouts of anger, sometimes for no apparent reason. I have hypersomnia, not insomnia, and if you let me, I will sleep 15+ hours a day. Sometimes I feel like spirits try to communicate with me because I think I hear them in my head. I hear random words, thoughts, sentences in my head that seem to come from nowhere. Especially if I'm really tired. I don't hallucinate. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember. It started getting really bad 12 years ago, which is when I finally sought help. But I never told them about the other stuff. Only the fact that I am depressed. I've been petrified of being labeled a crazy person.
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