I can sympathize about finances. I do have food stamps, and I have had to go to food pantries and soup kitchens to eat. I just live paycheck to paycheck, and sometimes not all the bills get paid. I wish I could give you some magic words, but I don't have any for either of us. Just know that you're not alone. And the whole "chin up" thing, ugh, I have had so many people tell me that, and if I could do it I would. Better than my aunt telling me to buck up. I wrecked my car last year, and I feel like I've lost a part of me. Car accidents are traumatizing. I hope things get better for you, even though I know those are only words.