My T persuades me not to think in terms of labels, but just in terms of how I am. My T tells me that I am OK, but it is how I interact with the world where the problem lies - so none of us are crazy, we just have a heap of defences that we have built around us to keep us safe and some of these make us see the world a little different sometimes.

I don't know whether your experiences are "psychotic depression", but there are some things there that you have written, that seem to lie outside of "just" depression. I guess if you have those thoughts, it must make it difficult to talk to a professional, you must really have to trust that person to open up completely.

Do those other thoughts bother you?

Soup

(love Monty Python by the way)