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Originally Posted by kj44
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! It's a long story, going to try to make it short as possible. You will have no respect for me when you hear this, as, I have none for myself.
I have been married 19yrs.. My husband had an affair, I caught him and took 60mg. of Ativan, new script I had. I don't remember anything, just waking up in hospital, apparently I called my sister for help. After being released, I stayed with my mom for 2 months, mind you I left home at 15. Then, I stayed with my daughter for a month. My husband called to tell me a friend of ours passed away, and, I ended moving back home. We live in a small town, no bus system, no where to get a job. My license is suspended for tickets, and, even if I had a license, he sold my car. Now, I'm being pressured to do things I don't want to do. Some days he is really nice to me, some days really mean. I feel sick, I have lost alot of weight,40+, and, I can't do it anymore. I have thought about being homeless often, I don't know if I can do it. Thanks for listening, I almost got it all out!
Kelli
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That is a lot of Ativan to gulp down... You poor thing. Also, your story is so typical, yet you have such a fear of losing someone's respect if you tell it! That's amazing! And you still withhold the things you are being pressured to do and use a phrase that avoids putting responsibility on the person who is pressuring - reread what you wrote, in the passive voice,
"I'm being pressured to do things I don't want to do." "you are being pressured" sounds almost as if it were YOUR fault that you are being pressured! Have you ever noticed that you talk in a way that makes you the one to take the blame for everything?
Why did he sell the car - did he have the title to your car? I do not think you can legally sell someone else's car - at least in California I know you cannot, because each sale needs to be registered with the DMV.
Have you felt this way all your life ("they will judge and disrespect me if they hear my story") or is it an attitude that you have acquired through the marriage?