I am overwhelmed by your responses, trying to answer each one individually, but, my husband will be home soon, so thank you all so much. Anika, I'm going to look into women shelters tomorrow, I never thought of that, I think they will let me in if I tell them everything. Hamster-Bamster, you are very smart, you really called me out! I'm laughing even though it's not funny!! Everyone on here is very intelligent, I always get good advice. As far as respect, I have lost it for myself, I used to be so strong, now,
I'm so pressured, and afraid. I'm doing things I don't want to do, and, I didn't see a way out. Tomorrow I'm going to look for shelters, thank you for that. It's really amazing to me that someone can suggest something that can help, and I never even thought of it. I will try to check in later, or tomorrow at some point. Thanks again!!!