dont beat urself up about it. we all slip up once in a while. you know that it wasnt a good thing to do, and you are beginning to see that it is not really making you feel better. yes it is immediate relief sometimes, but in the long run... not so much. that is progress (seeing that it wont really fix ur problems... that any way you look at it, it is only hurting you). you dont deserve that. do you have a t?