I'm having a terrible time dealing with the fact that I was impulsive a year ago and spoke publicly about my abuse. It has been rough and I wish I didn't. People have read about so many things that should have been a secret. Some people reached out to me and said how I helped them. Others have said how great I must feel about telling. I don't feel great about telling. It's crappy. I wish I never told. I know I sound childish but feeling very childish right now.