Hi everyone..good morning..

I have been given some assignments in Therapy and I am reading on how emotions kinds develope and work. I am a little perplexed, so I am asking for some input.

I think as part of the way my system developed..the traumatic emotions are "stuck" within the system, for lack of a better word.

I am not very good at expression of emotions in IRL, sure most of you(s) can relate...when I first came into therapy was pretty numb and neutral, and very perplexed at how ppl express emotion..what I wanted to know was how ppl could like..get angry in front of others, or cry, even having a good belly laugh..it was not like I did not shed tears when alone, although when I did it usually led to self injury to stop the feelings from coming thru or the dissociative processes would take over.. I had to be in a closet or someplace hidden if even an inkling of emotion started to surface..strange when I am all alone I still feel like I have to run and hide..yuckie..

But I have noticed when I am online, I can write what I cannot feel in IRL safely..does that make sense??..Does anyone else discover they can talk about things online..like feelings..and stuff..that they hide even from themselves in IRL...Oh I know this sounds so confusing..but I am confused...

As a teen I utilized art and writing (Graphics & Text) as an outlet..do you think this has anything to do with it? or am I trying to figure out something thats just a quandrum??